Wednesday, January 10, 2007
Who am I kidding? The thought of leaving is making me more and more upset with each day that passes. I'll miss my friends, family, church, home-cooked food..
This is a new chapter of my life and I should be excited. Tzes told me to listen to Walk On by U2 and the part of the song that kind of stuck to me was:
And love it's not the easy thing, the only baggage that you can bring. Not the easy thing, the only baggage you can bring is all that you can't leave behind. And if the darkness is to keep us apart, and if the daylight feels like it's a long way off, and if your glass heart should crack, before the second you turn back, oh no, be strong.. walk on walk onI still remember 10 years ago, when we left for the US.. (gosh it has already been 10 years since we left) there was this sense of jubilation. haha I was happy to leave St. Nicks. I mean, the prospect of studying in the US for 3 years as compared to staying in the school seemed far more attractive. :) I still recall the frantic packing, the empty house, all the preparation, mom falling down the stairs the night before we left and spraining her ankle.. I was happy to leave. The only thing I was sad about was the Che and Yai couldn't come with us, cuz Che was in NUS and Yai had army. haha army. But anyway, other than the 2 of them, there really wasn't anything else that I was leaving behind. But now, things are so different. I remember Dad asked me whether I would want to leave again and he work for another term at the embassy and I said no. It was a very emphatic no, now that I think about it. There's so much here that I can't see myself leaving behind. But yet I know that the day is coming very soon, very quickly. Instead of 3 years I'll be gone for 5. I don't know when I'll see the UK and US people again.. :( -sigh-
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