Sunday, February 20, 2005
goodbye to you.. just for now. mama died today. 2.45am LA time.. 6.45pm Singapore time. I was trying to do my bio tutorial when the phone rang. I was writing a word and I jumped and my pen nearly went across the paper onto my desk. When I heard mom's voice I just wanted to sink down and die. I remember I froze.. then I just cried and cried. But mama died peacefully.. it was in her sleep. And everyone was there. All the cousins.. all her children. She died with the people she loved the most around her.. and she died in her sleep. God has so much grace.. He gave her a death that everyone wants to have.
She had a dream. She told mom who told me. She called them and said she had a story to tell them. Mama said that she dreamt that she was going up. Then when she got to the top of where ever she was going, there were 2 people waitingfor her. They were all dressed in white robes and one of them had one for her. And they placed it on her. When askedwhether she was happy there, she said that she was very happy there.
Che is here now. She said that a few nights ago when she was praying.. maybe on the same day that mama had that dream, she had a vision. mama was standing. she had both her legs again. and there were all these people standing around her. although her face couldn't be seen, she knew that one of them had to be ah kong. and they were all getting ready.. kind of like a huge banquet to receive mama into the Kingdom of God. and it then flashed to another scene. God was seated on a throne.. and mama was kneeling before Him. And then He placed a crown on mama's head.. and He took her hand and led her around. Che prayed that God would help mama and to ease her fear. But according to her, mama looked so radiant and young and so happy. Reunited with those she hadn't seen in years.. like ah kong. When she told me about this, I just cried.
I feel so.. relieved that she's not suffering anymore. And that she's being taken care of by God. He has answered our prayers and mama is happy. She's probably smiling down now.. I wish I could see her again.. maybe in a vision.
Che, Eunice and I were just remembering some stuff with mama.. all the fond memories. To mama, I love you so much and I will see you again one day..
2:18 AM