Sunday, June 27, 2004
I just came home about half an hour ago from Shu Xian's wake. Rebecca was there... the 2 of us were looking through an album of Shu Xian last year and crying. I don't think I've ever felt so... I can't really describe it... don't-know-what-to-do. And I can't help but think about the impact of one person... one special individual.
I wonder why God wanted to take her life... to call her back to Him. So many 'why's are popping up... why her? why now? why must this happen?
Every person you meet and know will have an impact on your life. It could be positive or negative, but the impact is still there. I guess something like this is like a ripple. It starts at one point and it spreads... it just continues spreading until it reaches some kind of barrier... where it will be reflected. Kind of unending isn't it?
To Shu Xian, you have made an impact on my life.. I wish I could tell you that
I wish I got to know you better... and that is something I will regret for the rest of my life. My only consolation now is that you are happy. You are no longer suffering... and you are at home. I just hope to see you again one day... where we can just enjoy and relax. There's a saying that you never appreciate someone until they are gone... This is it.
God bless you always, dear. I know you will always be smiling down on us. While we cry, you want us to rejoice in your eternal life. To jeremy, xiao tian, her family and all her friends, you all have shown so much strength this past week... be strong k? God bless...
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